I see stupid people...my daily irritations
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Original: 7/27/2006 8:44 PM
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Thursday, July 27, 2006

 

So I called Diane to let her know that I did not feel comfortable with her taking Taylor to see her parents this fall.  Man was she PISSED.  She said goodbye and hung up on me.  I called her back and told her that I really didn't appreciate being hung up on like that because of a decision that I made as a mother.  She asked me what I didn't feel comfortable with, was it the plane, her, what?  I told her exactly what it is, that I don't like Taylor being that FAR away from me at this age. Maybe when she's older but not right now.

She was still pissed off and so be it, I don't care anymore.  She said that her and REuben will go up there.  DO you think I should send her great grandparents a letter explaining to them and saying I'm sorry that she can't come up there right now?  THen she tried to put the guilt trip on me that her parents aren't going to be coming down here anymore because she is moving to New Mexico.  Not my problem that you decided to move to New Mexico.  And if she thinks I'm going to send Taylor down there for the summers like she did to REuben she's got another thing coming, not going to happen.  FOr the most part 99% of the people I've talked to have agreed with me and that they also wouldn't send there kids off with the MIL or in this case REuben's Mother. 

I'm just not comfortable.  Period.  End of Story!!

I need to learn to be a stronger person.  Like my dear friend Jill.  I need to be more like her. 

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No, you don't need to be more like me...you need to see that you're worth being you, you're worth standing up for. That's what I've had to learn all these years...I feel like..."I'm so dang tired of learning things...can I STOP learning?" but no, whenever I think it's time to stop...God says..."hey girl, you over there, the one I love deeply...I still have things you need to know...so suck it up (I think He really says that to me because I'm not so good with the "gentle words") suck it up and let's get moving on this...or you're going to sit around and just be a pain in the neck to everyone around you, including yourself.

So everyday I'm talking myself through what I know to be true...it's tiring, but apparently worth it because...I thought I was going to lose it yesterday and I'm still standing tonight.

love you girl...jill
Posted 7/29/2006 10:26 PM by crazytalk05 - reply

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I read our blogs Jill and you write what I'm thinking but can't say (at least not without a dictionary).  You have been through so much and you can still handle day to day activites like taking care of the kids, something that seems like it should be so simple but I can't handle anything it seems.  I depend on my Mother SO much and I depend on Kris probably way more then I should.  I should be able to handle things and I can't because these damn panic attacks take over my body and I am trying so hard to control them. 

I can't sleep either.  I sleep for maybe 3 hours and then I'm up for the rest of the night.  The past few nights I've taken a Xanax but I don't want to have to depend on them, ya know what I mean?

Ugh, why can't life be easy?

Posted 8/2/2006 12:40 PM by majen17763 - reply


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